now im finally proud to SCREAM.
SCREAM k?
noy say tauuu!
SCREAM.

JURONGVILLE SECONDARY SCHOOL
National Police Cadet Corps [NPCC]
is now
a FREAKING GOLD UNIT! :D

*beams wideeeeeeeeeeeeeely.

im so proud of it!
because im part of it :D
(beams proudly)

i freaking hate mood swings.
beacuse im kept on having one nowadays.
and it seriously SWINGS y'know.
i just burst (k,not really)
just throw tantrums and show attitude.
uhhhhhhhhh!
this time of the month uhhh!

so im sorry if one way or another i hurt you people via my
stupidd mood swings. :D
especially.
SOFIA AINI! :D
omg girl.
only GOD knows how much i love you.

him wasnt there during training just now.
and i just, i d k.
just miss him, i guess.

hah.
i cnt really believe that sofia dont really like to see me like this every friday.
i cnt help it darlinggg. D:

so,i miss him.
and still,im hoping and dreaming that
one fine day.
him will talk to me.
we will have a decent talk.
and have a laugh.
a joke or two.
just a decent chat.
its been a while.

do i sound THAT desperate?
or maybe, i just cant move on that fast
like how i used to.
this things takes time.
loads of time.

im alone at home now.
and im bored.
because mum and dad.
they went to Penang.
until Sunday night.
and my sister got some camp at her school.
i an only with my grandparents now.
and im lonely.

i miss my sister.
Syarifah Syazanatul Aisyah.
i miss sharing my problems with her.
crying my hearts out.
pouring all my feelings.
venting everything to her.
and she will just listen.
and give stupid comments or remarks and make me smile.
i love her the best. ;D

please come home fast,sister.
i miss you.
and i need you now like drugggg.

Let me tell you a little stupid story.
about me and my lovely sister, aisyah. :D

two days ago.
i came home from school, all tired and mentally beat.
i had a bath change and have dinner.
mum and dad was not home yet.
and its ard 9pm.
Aisyah was sick.
and she was losing her voice that day.
she was on MC b t w.
i was stressed.
therefore,i kept on moaning.
"I MISS HIM...i miss him...i really miss him aisyah" while rolling on th bed.
trying to hide my tears with my Spongebob.
But, i could not fool her,because in fact she is my sister.
she knows me inside out.
She throws a pillow at me and said,
"Stop it hanna. i hate you like this. move on mann!"
I just continued moaning and trying very hard to not sound like i was crying.
i failed to deceive her.
and she found out i was crying.
"call him, talk to him" she said while sms-ing someone.
"he aint replying my messages!" i growled.
"do you think he got pissed and is trying to ignore and avoid me?" i continued.
"now,where did that idea came from? I dont think he is avoiding you,hanna. Cheer up" she sighed.
i brought myself together and jump off the bed.
thereafter, sat on the chair to use the computer.
and this is when.
the "DIS-STRESSING SESSION" with my yonger sister starts.
it was funnn.
we sangggg.
k we literally SHOUT at all the songs we played.
k,i was mainly th only one shouting to
Check yes Juliet.
Dear maria and
Fireworks.
haha.
my sister losing her voice so she just sang monotonously. ;D
but i finnally got her shouting with me with all the actions to Fireworks. ;D
haha.
it was nice.
we laughed so harddd that i cried.
and at the end of it all, i grew tired.
and this thing called "stress" suddenly dissapear.
and all she said was, "im so gonna lose my voice hanna. thnks to you"
haha.
i love dis-stressing session with her.
and now, she isnt here.
its hard to dis-stress. D:

if only i can hug my sister and kiss her.
but you know her.
she wont allow you too.
including me!
ME!
her very own older sister! ;D
whenever i trried she would either push me away
or slap my face.
IF she got th mood to be kissed,
she will just give me 3 seconds(?)
haha! ;D

cute huh?

i miss Syarifah Syazanatul Aisyah.
and
i miss HIM.

i cnt wait fr tmr! :D
omfg!